Wednesday, June 24, 2009

WALKING AWAY

She had swore that she wouldn't, she would never let it happen to her,she wasn't like the other girls, she was different, at times she thought better even. But he was special. He was like no one else she had ever met. She had tried so hard to stay away from him, knowing it was wrong, knowing she would be going against everything she stood for, everything she had believed in. But to her it seemed impossible. She felt drawn to him, attracted to him so strongly that when he was around she couldn't think straight. All she could see was him, all she could feel was him, there was no one else except him.

She still remembered it all so clearly like it was yesterday. Every time she closed her eyes he was there. His perfect face grinning at her, his bright brown eyes burning into hers. If she tried hard enough she could almost remember how it felt to touch him, to feel him next to her. The first time she had seen him she knew he was different, not like the many others that she knew. He had touched her heart, brought down the barriers that she had worked night and day to build. His every presence, his every touch, every tender caress had knocked them down one by one.

She remembered the first time she had met him. Her cousin had brought him and his mom over to their house. She had nearly slammed the door on him without realising he was there. But once she had seen him she knew that she wouldn't ever forget him. He was imprinted in her head for as long as she remembered those wonderful memories. Sometimes it drove her crazy thinking about all the times they had shared, all the things they had done together. But what tore away at her heart was the memories of what it felt to kiss him, to hold him, to make love to him.

She remembered the first time he had kissed her. They were standing in her drawing room. He had brought her home from a movie. She was surprised at how the whole time they were there he hadn't made a move on her. To an extent she was even disappointed. But now here they were standing opposite each other. He kept on saying he was leaving; yet he made no attempt to move towards the door. She had teased him saying she would see him tomorrow, asking why he hadn't left yet, what was stopping him. He said goodbye once again as he moved towards her. He had moved until he was inches away from her face. She felt his hot breath on her face. “You know, I'm not leaving without a kiss” he said huskily staring into her eyes. She swallowed the lump that had formed in her throat; she looked at him then to his lips. She knew it was wrong, her brain was telling her to run, to stop this before it started, to get away from him as far as possible. But she froze to the spot and whispered, “Well what are you waiting for then?” Her heart pounded as he moved even closer towards her and reached out his hand to touch her face. He brushed the strands of hair that fell into her eyes. He gently caressed the side of her cheek down to her chin. Tracing his fingers around her face until he found her lips. He gently brushed his fingers over them looking at her so intensely, she felt unable to breath. She felt his fingers on her lips and yearned for his lips to touch hers. He finally brought his face closer to hers; she tilted her head waiting for him. He placed his lips on hers and she parted her lips to receive him. She felt his lips crush hers; she felt a rush through her whole body. She could feel the sensation take over her whole body as he continued to kiss her even intensely. She moved her body closer towards him until she could feel her chest press against his. She felt his arms around her as the kiss deepened. She felt her whole body awaken, every fibre in her body was responding to his touch. It was all she could do to pull away from him, trying to catch her breath. He stood there perfectly still, smiling at her. “You know next time, that's not going to be enough” he said as he reached his head forwarded and planted one final kiss on her cheek before he left. She knew exactly what he had meant and her heart skipped a beat at the prospect of what was to come.

The tears rolled down her cheek now as she remembered those memories,those wonderful memories that were going to torture her for as long as she remembered him. She wiped away the tears and looked around at the room. The room, which she had shared with him. She tried to block out the memories of both of them together smiling, laughing, and crying. She looked around the room from the cupboard where he kept his clothes to his desktop where he worked, until her eyes rested on the double bed that they had shared. Her breath caught in her throat as she replayed the many occasions that they had spent making love. She remembered his every touch as if he was touching her for the first time again. The pain was unbearable and she had to look away. She walked over to the door where her bags were packed. She bent down and picked them up. She turned around for one final look before she locked the door. She walked away slowly at first, then faster wanting to get away. She knew it was the right thing to do. She had nothing left to stay here for now. As she walked away, she knew that this very second he was marrying her cousin, making the lifetime commitment that he should be making to her.

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14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ohhhh..You do magic with words..i simply love reading your fictions !

hitchwriter said...

:( :(

i am what i am said...

@anonymous: thank you so much


@hitchwriter: why so sad dhiren???

Solilo said...

Gunmeen, You should really consider writing a book. I am sure it will turn into a movie to some day. Very beautifully written!

jayant said...

If it was pure imagination, Hats off to you!
and HATS OFF to you even if it contains a part of reality coz it takes skill to weave magic with words!

keep goin!!

SGD said...

Awesome as always....

indyeahforever said...

what a heartbreaking story to read Gunmeen..I felt sad for her...
and angry with him...


you do have a way with words ....
(((hugs))

i am what i am said...

@solilo: thank you solilo....you are very kind in youur praise for this piece....its so nice to see such encouraging words from fellow bloggers...thank you

@jayant: thank you jsyant...do visit the blog again..loking forward to more comments from you...

i am what i am said...

@SGD: thank you


@indyeah: thank you indyeah...to tell you thr truth its not entirely a pice of fiction...i think thats why the emotions came out so strong in it....you actually feel sad for her and angry at him like you said...so true...it was meant to evoke this in the readers heart....so glad i could i do it...

Aniket said...

Wooo!! You had the temperature raising here with the first two para's. But I loved the ironical twist you gave it. Very well written.

Smitha said...

That was so beautifully written!

It was amazing.. You do weave magic with your words!

Srivatsan said...

I dont feel sad for her; but for her cousin.You know there is this trust and one should not break that , if they dont want theirs to be broken.She trusted her fiancee and protagonist and both had betrayed her trust.
But as this is fiction,it has good twist and good feel.

Bharath said...

You appear to be too good in playing with words...!!! Everyone does not possess this talent.

I only hope all that was a fiction..but I guess it isn't..!!!

Keep up the good work..it’s really a great post...!!!!

Amaresh said...

hi .. really great .. i love your blogs mostly love topics ...

good one

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