Monday, May 4, 2009

YOU

I sit here smoking, drinking, thinking about you, and asking myself questions which have no answers. Who is he? Why him? Why me? Where is he now? The questions will always be there, never fade. But, in the long run, that's okay.

Can't you see? I want you a lot, but I love you so much more. I don't know why, I feel this way. You have captured it all, my mind, my body, my heart, and, yes even now,my soul. I gave it to you freely, to do what you want with it. But I must beg you to be kind. Please don't hurt me.

For I couldn't recover from this love which is so blind. You are my world it's so plain to see. You are the light which guides me. What does she have that I don't? What is so great about her? Is she better than I? Does she love you more? Could she love you like I could? I don't know.

And that's why I fear in the long run she will always have what I don't .

You.

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12 comments:

SGD said...

What a post..raw with emotion!!
There is pain, angst, and a flicker of hope...
Great writing....

hitchwriter said...

geee.. things in that can be twisted and used to write a proposal letter !! interesting...

whats not interesting is I am passe the age to be thinking of writing such letters !!! ;)

Girish Banwari said...

that's some tragedy-stricken soul, passing through a bout of depression, speaking.....i'm surprised as to how can a person be so so emotionally obsessed of another person for the separation/rejection to be so pathetically painful....the very thought of it irks me, though it does happen to people suffering from borderline personality disorder.....
but wht really arouses my curiosity is one of the labels of this post - 'non-fiction'....so was it "YOU" who's passing through/has passed through this mess........

Aniket said...

Wow! Emotions overflowing with each word.

Excellent depiction of bare thoughts.

I hope this is purely fiction. :D

Solilo said...

Gunmeen, That is deep with myriad of emotions.

Rahul Viswanath said...

I second SGD ..... Raw !!! Good one :)

Illeen said...

*sigh*

Brings out the inner pain..

i am what i am said...

@SGD : thank you i'm glad you liked it so much.


@hitchwriter : a proposal letter. you're the only one who can come up with this. yeah and me too.

i am what i am said...

@girish: you dont necesaarily have to pass through or go through the situation yourself. sometimes things are so stark in front of you that it is not mandatory that yoy go through them to feel them.

i am what i am said...

@aniket : thanks yaar. glad you liked it. it is what it is. thats all i would like to say.


@solilo: thanks solilo.

@rahul: thank you rahul


@illeen: it does. trust me only the person involved knows why she is in this kind of a situation. its nothing to gloat but she sure has her own reasons to be in this relationship.

Preeti Shenoy said...

Loved it..Could feel the agony in this seemingly hopeless love.
Cheers
preeti

i am what i am said...

@Preeti: thanks preeti. what a lovely surprize to get a comment from you. thanks for visiting the blog.

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